I think I was under the impression that my “second adulthood” meant that I had to reinvent myself and do something new.  But, how do you reinvent yourself, when you realize you’ve never really known yourself?

I felt “lost.”  But, how could I be lost?  I still had my husband, my daily life, routine — the only thing different was that my children now lived somewhere else.  

I didn’t know what to do with myself.  Where my house used to always be neat, orderly, and everything ran like a well oiled machine – it was now messy, unorganized, and I just couldn’t get it together.

I was building my Virtual Assistant practice and it was going very well – I poured myself into my work and neglected the house, my husband, and my children.  Well, neglect is really a strong word.  I didn’t neglect them, they just weren’t the first thing I focused on anymore – they were also adjusting, but I was too busy trying to “reinvent” myself to notice.  I was too busy to notice that I had also stopped taking care of myself.  My weight was out of control, I was no longer exercising or even eating healthy – life was starting to fall apart.

I’m not exactly sure the moment I realized life wasn’t working for me anymore, but things were about to change!